Do I need a note to explain my absence?

Maybe.
I dont feel up going into a long schpeal about it though.
Writers block -yes. Tired of re-hashing the same complaints on this topic - yes. A slight paranoia of judgement about my poor grammar - yes.

But as of late I am feeling the need for an outlet again. Lately I have been spewing my thoughts on my email's notepad.

I may just be lazy enough to do a few cut and pastes:


August 28/06 8am

how can one meet others when you feel your heart is someone else?
Thats my question.
For example, if someone loses a loved one who they truely believe was their soul mate, how can they be open to finding someone else?
And will that someone else just be a "filler"?
Thats pretty sad I think because it is not fair to the one who is the "filler".
They are likely getting half-assed love from the one they are with.

Well, I think I may be on the cusp of just random dating - with no feeling at all. I definately feel that my heart is not up for it but I think it is something I need to do. Yes... These fellows dont stand much of a chance I would say. Maybe that is how I will come off to them then? Being Half-assed interested in the date? Not good. Sometimes I can have a fun time on dates and yet know deep down it wont work.