long update....

Whew! long time so see Bloggie!

Where have I been? Hummm... going through a dry spell perhaps .... a writing dry spell I mean - cause we all know the love life is a constant dry spell - yep ! I can always count on that hehe.

I think I go through fazes. Now its just a numb one. Yep - not looking and trying to focus on other things to keep myself preoccupied.

Then last night I heard a mushy song! Gah!
Ya sure it cracked through my ice cold shell. And heck I dont even like country music - but it is nice - yes the words are nice.
Of course my gf who has a man noticed it first (she used to be into all these depressing songs before she found a guy - funny how it works hehe)
But yes its the one playing now, here are the lyrics.
Thanks for putting alittle bit of hope into my dry spell R!

I remember my favorite mushy song growing up :
I was in grade 10 : Somebody - Depeche Mode - grrr cant seem to find a video code that works, the sample does not do it justice - here are the lyrics.

- Sometimes I wonder if these songs along with all those mushy videos and movies and childhood stories are putting preconceived misconceptions as to what love is supposed to be like for little gals - grrr Cinderella and Sleepy Beauty!

Anyhow - on a side note that patient came in again, you know, that senoir lady who dated a 26yr old when she was in her 40s. She mentioned it again, and I somehow asked her this time about how it ended (ya nosey me, but thats the risk you take once you give me alittle info). She said it didnt end bad at all. She actually dated the guy for 8 yrs! wowzers - it wasnt just a brief love affair. She said she was entering menopause (oh what I have to look forward to!) and she realized she could not lead that life anymore, the drinking the partying, she wanted to settle down, so the relationship fizzled out. She describes the phone convo:
- there was a pause in their convo and he said:
"You know what..... I had the time of my life!"
"Yes, me too" my patient said
"Thank you, I will never forget you"
Awww - if all wild love affairs can end like this the world would be a happier place.

On other thoughts:

I was talking to a gf of mine about a week ago. Yes - the never ending single gal talk where we say all our worries and fears and analyzing other relationships around us but in the end we feel like we are just mice running around in the same circle over and over and not gaining anything from it, saying "ah and here we are, after all that talking, still single and alone"

Anyhow I used to think when I was younger that if I was ever in a fight or argument with my husband in the future or even arguments with family members that all you had to do was say "I love you" and that if you both understood that you both loved eachother that all will be right in the world - everything will automatically fix themselves and each side would lay down their arms and hug and all will be merry. Just so long as you said those words and both parties felt the same for eachother.

Hahahaha.

I learnt early on that that is not enough. I think it had something to do with my newly divorced uncle who was staying over at our house until things got settled. He was my mom's brother and his - over-staying his welcome was driving my dad insane and driving a wedge between my parents.
Where am I going with this?

My friend was saying to me "Ya you know what - when it comes to relationships sometimes LOVE is just NOT enough"Gah! As pessimistic as I am I dont want to give in to this notion!

You know what happened with the situation above? Eventually my mom put pressure on my uncle to finnally move out. All was better and my parents do love each other.

I said to my gf, " I dunno, maybe its not that LOVE is not enough, but more that the ppl just Dont LOVE eachother enough to make things work"
"you know - just like that saying of: When ppl say they CANT, sometimes what they really mean is they DONT WANT TO"

So sometimes there is alittle meaning to my maddness in the songs I post up here. I think I missed posting one before this present song alluding to my dry spell again and my brief absence from here.